Tunnel Vision

When you are driving, and you get to your destination and can't remember the actual drive there because you were lost in your own thoughts... this is called tunnel vision. It is said to be more dangerous than driving while exhausted, drunk, or high. I had tunnel vision while running today and that scares me a little because it means I have no idea what was going on around me and that is very unsafe.

Anyway, today's 2 mile run was extremely fast. I was out the door and the next thing I knew I was back to my complex. My thoughts were completely taken up by wedding planning. I went venue shopping and it was utter failcakes. The first two venues did not have my date available. I knew the first one didn't but I wanted to look at their hotel for guests anyway, but the second one told me on the phone that they had my date and when I got there they told me they had a hold on my date and it probably would not come available. The third place says they fit 250 people, but after being in there, 175 I think would be the most you could fit comfortably. And that made me so sad because it was such an AWESOME space. But I had a cousin who used a very small space and had to flip it, and it was so miserable. Everybody hated it and I don't want people to remember my wedding that way.

So today I have 3 more venues and I hope it goes better than yesterday. Saturday I have 20 miles. It is my first time. I am nervous in the way that I am always nervous. But I know I can do it because I did 18 and this is only 2 more miles. Sarah will be there to push me through when I'm struggling. I really appreciate her.

We might go boot blocking Sunday. We will see if we are moving.

This weekend's smell is brought to you by the letter B

Saturday morning I had my 10 mile run. I started off really fast for me because I started running with my mentor Amy. I realized fairly quickly that I was not going to be able to keep that pace up so I slowed her down a little, but it was still a quick pace.

I liked the pace at first because it was cold that morning. It was cold enough that my arms and hand were going numb and getting that slight burning feeling. As the sun came out it got warmer and my arms were fine, but my hands were still really stiff by the end of the run and I had kept clenching and unclenching them throughout the run.

Amy and I caught up with what is going on in both our lives and chatted about our weekend plans. We both have plans to BBQ and when we were talking about camping and BBQing a burning wood smell came our way. It smelled like someone was BBQing at 6:30 in the am. I guess they could have been started a smoker or something that takes a good portion of the day, but it was really strange.

I stayed with Amy for the first 4 1/2 miles but then I had to drop behind and go my own pace if I wanted to be able to run the whole thing. I wasn't going my slow pace but a decent pace for me and I was happy. At the end of the run I ended up kicking it for the last half mile. I saw the finish line and just started running fast, it wasn't planned, it just happened. I managed to get all 10 miles in in 2 hours! That included my water stops which means my shorter run pace is picking up. I was really proud and stoked.

This Monday morning I woke up to future hubby's alarm and groaned. I was sooo tired, I just wanted to go back to bed. But I couldn't because it was the only time today that I had to run, and I needed to run because I am going WEDDING DRESS SHOPPING today!!! So I wanted to get a run in so that I could feel good about my body. It is completely mental. When I exercise I feel better about the way that I look then days that I don't even though my body doesn't change that much from one day to the next.

Anyway, after a slow start, I got out the door and did a quick and easy 3 miles. I had a lot to think about with what underwear I am going to wear to try on dresses, and what outfit I am going to wear since I have to go straight to a Labor Day party afterwards. I also thought about what kind of dresses I want to try on and that fact that I am very excited and even a little nervous. I can't believe I'm actually getting married! 6years together. You know it is going to happen but knowing it will someday happen and it actually happening are so different. It is hard to explain.

Halfway through the run I was in the park that I am always telling you about and there is a HUGE cookout going on. Kids all over the playground, adults milling about, and then it hits me with the full force of being in a very small apartment. The smell of bacon. Don't get me wrong. I don't dislike the smell of bacon. That is neither here nor there to me. But when you are running, fresh air is really what you want to be smelling. Anyway I got through the park and back to the streets and fresh air.

I haven't been fundraising since boot blocking. Maybe Sarah and I will go again next weekend. Anyway, I am off to go shopping! Thanks for sharing this with me.