Contradiction in mental states

I woke up this morning, put on my running shoes, leashed Atreyu and went out the door. Running today was a mental struggle. I started my cycle last night so I was feeling very sluggish this morning. There was a lot of, "keep going, it's a short run" going on in my head. Then at the beginning of the run I wasn't paying attention and shortly realized I started doing my route the hard way where the really steep hill is at the end, and I usually do that on my 2mile run and not my 3mile and def. not when I feel this way. So then I had to just keep encouraging myself because it was too late and I wasn't going to turn around.

So most of the run was filled with thoughts of just getting through it, but they other part of my brain was racing with excitement. I got engaged Saturday night so this morning I was thinking of all the things I need to get started on. Mostly my thoughts were about getting my ring sized today and trying on my mother's wedding dress. I have been thinking about this for 2 years now, and now that it is here it seems so surreal. It is very weird for me to realize that I am actually getting married to one of the most wonderful people in the world.

Basically my run was full of contradicting thoughts. My body and running mind were sluggish and a struggle, and the rest of my mind was racing with excitement. Thankfully though, I think the excitement got me all the way through my run even if I was slow.

I didn't get to go boot blocking on Sunday, 1) because I got engaged and ended up celebrating with family and 2)because I was unable to get in contact with Sarah. Hopefully next week we will be able to go out there together. Other than that, please still follow along and share my stories with others!