But I don't wanna

Getting out of bed this morning was a struggle. It was the first time in about a week that I had slept the whole night through and when future hubby's alarm went off this morning I realized that I still need several more hours to make up for a week's lack of sleep. But I pulled myself up and SLOWLY got ready for my run.

At this point I have stopped checking to see if I want to run. It's not really an option, I don't look at it as, am I excited to get out the door? I don't usually even not want to go, it is just a matter of routine at this point. It's like brushing my teeth or getting dressed before leaving the house. It doesn't really matter if I want to or not because I am going to do it anyway so why ask myself if I want to or not. I realized that my Monday and Wednesday runs had become this way for me. Because halfway into my run this morning, my brain said to me, 'you know, I'm not really in the mood for this today, lets stop and go home'. Fortunately I was already at the halfway point so I just told my self to keep going and I would get home faster. It was just a sign of how tired I am physically and emotionally.

Atreyu did awesome today. There were A LOT of doggies out today and as we passed by he always looked at them curiously but never misbehaved. It kept telling him what a good doggy he was and he looked up at me every time with his tongue out like 'hu hu hu, thanks mom!'

Yesterday Sarah and I boot blocked and we each made $100 in under 2 hours! It was great. Sara's parents also gave me a $50 donation in honor of her so a big thank you to them! I am getting close to my goal, please help me finish getting there. Thanks for all your support.